From Tragedy to Triumph

Greetings my friends! Buen dia mis amigos! Mar7aba habibis! How are you all? I have been swell. In the past few weeks, I have also been able to better understand the world around me. Even though I don’t comprehend it fully, I am striving. I’d really like to thank the world, my family, and my friends for loving me and always looking out for me. I know you’re rooting for me and I promise I will be great, not for my own sake, but to help the world! These past few weeks, I have been blessed to be able to spend some time all over the Bay Area, Beverly Hills and Santa Monica again. I also got to visit Dallas, Texas, which was nice and calm. Although it was hotter than I’m used to, it was pleasant to discover a new place. I didn't realize how emotional and philosophical I would be visiting where President John F. Kennedy was assassinated. I don't always agree with everything he did, but I have much respect and I too promise to make this country and world a better place. That is my goal in life, let's forget all the pettiness of life. 

I’ve been in tune with my brain and emotions more than ever as well. I’ve had plenty of time to think about my past relationships, loves, and what the future may hold. The possibilities with each gentleman I have dated were unique, well at least with most of them (hahaha). I would say I am not in a relationship with anyone at the moment because life cannot be fully planned. Of course, I would have liked to be with someone and grow with them. But things happen; perhaps the chemistry dwindled away, work schedules were too out of control, or maybe the Universe had greater plans for us. 

There are times when we must distinguish whether it is our egos or our soul that gets hurt when we part with someone or when someone decides to leave you without avail. When I date someone for a little while and it doesn’t work out…I used to think I was devastated and my soul broken, but that is not so. I learned that it was just my ego getting a little scratched because I had not been with the person long enough to grow with them and truly love their soul and dreams. My ego was hurt because I kept thinking, “Why, I’m the best you’ve ever had!”

At the Santa Monica Pier

Although I may be known as a ruthless, “love them and leave them”, heartbreaker to my friends and family (why they think this? I have no clue. Hehehe. Ok ok, maybe a little clue), in some past experiences, I have known the beauty of true love and I have also known the pain of heartbreak. In a past experience, my counterpart is the one that decided to part ways with me and left me to carry the pieces of my heavy broken heart. I truly wanted to make it work and imagined a happy life with them. I felt so lost, alone, hopeless and simply sad. Alas, when the soul seems to be torn, the questions I ask myself when someone I truly loved and cared for has parted with me are, “What’s wrong with me? Am I not good enough? What’d I do?”. There were tears and many other questions, such as, “Am I not meant to be loved?”. Fear not, after that stage of hopelessness and sorrow pass, I am back to my usual self and have a greater understanding of people and of my own emotions. Life experience has allowed me to acknowledge if it is my ego or soul that is hurt, but I occasionally get confused. Have any of you ever felt this way? 

When someone you love and adore leaves you with a broken heart, do not turn bitter. It is the easiest route to go, but look beyond that and grow from this love. Perhaps, the world parted you for greater things. Now that I look back, each heart break has only lead me to greater opportunities. And simply because they are not with you does not mean that love must go to waste and be forgotten. Because if it is true love, you can use it for the greater good of the world. All the pure love I have had for certain individuals, motivates me to be a better person, for myself and for the universe. I do miss being with them and I wonder what could have been, but not for too long because there is a world to make better! I loved them truly, to the point where I want to make the world a better place for them and their partner and their children. Perhaps we must cease to focus on the negative aspects and on the positive and remember, there are many more lifetimes to come, where you can be reunited with that someone. This is going from tragedy to triumph! And as Frank Sinatra has said, “Love has kept me cool in July and warm in December”. Truly, I am a romantic optimistic, so in love with the world. I won’t deny it because that is life! I must get going now, as I am getting ready to head down to Baja California, Mexico for a few days and then to Dubai, UAE, and then to Cairo, Egypt! Alas, we shall meet, world! Stay sane and humble my habibis.